I've been feeling exhausted. I don't know if it's depression, a virus or both. When I have a spare moment all I want to do is sleep. I've become a huge fan of the nap. Of course this morning I enjoyed a vigorous snow shoveling before work - assisted by my wonderful neighbor Cam. I think he had already done several driveways when he came over to help me. As I finished shoveling and headed off to work I turned on some music. An uplifting and fabulous CD thoughtfully given to me by Jill began to play. I felt a wave of gratitude.
Throughout this divorce process many friends ask, "What can I do?" "How can I help?" The answer quite frankly is...I have no idea. But what does help is the asking and what helps even more are the prayers. There is great comfort in knowing there are people out there that I can turn to...people who are ready and waiting to help me...as soon as I figure out what I need. When I have those days that I become burdened with thoughts of "How will I possibly make ends meet?" or "Will there ever be a man who could love me?" or general fear of the unknown I feel this gentle nudge back in to the realm of positive thinking. I believe those nudges come from the power of prayer on my behalf. There is nothing more touching to me than to think of someone praying for my well being.
I don't know how I will make ends meet, I don't know if, when I'm ready, there will be a man out there for me - BUT, I do know that the Lord has blessed me with an amazing family and incredible friends whose faith and kindness buoy me up everyday. I am so blessed.