Why I haven't been posting: mind-numbing depression. I think I have reached the point in therapy were you realize that ignorance is truly bliss. Or at least having hope is bliss. Once you realize that certain things will never change and understand why (things of course being other people) it is very discouraging. Never in my life have I been so depressed that I stopped reading, but that is where I have been the past couple of weeks. I haven't even rescheduled an appointment with my therapist - although I will. I am now starting to reach the end of this grieving period (I hope...oops that's what got me here to begin with) and believe that some healing will begin or there is at least a slight glimmer that something positive will become of this experience. The hard part is my normal coping mechanism of food no longer does the trick (damn therapy) but I have yet to replace that with something else - which has left me feeling very vulnerable. I am very glad that it is almost the end of the school year. The end of our normally chaotic schedule is on the horizon and that is a relief!
Working out has been inconsistent the past little while - but I am back at it. I need to keep that a priority. Jill asked what I have been doing - I have been alternating walking (at a fast clip) on the treadmill with either The Firm DVDs or a cardio weight combo that Denise Druce gave me. With the one Denise provided me you alternate 3 minutes of cardio with 3 minutes of weights. If you want it I will email it to you - just give me your email. The most effective thing, surprisingly, has been writing down what I eat. If weight loss is a goal of yours than this is a hugely helpful - and eye opening experience. I write it all down...even those little nibbles here and there. I do have one pic that cracked me up - thanks Cathy!
The correct way to weigh yourself...I can't believe I have been doing it wrong all these years!